2007 Year in Review: Songs

I have a lot of friends, who live and die for music. Me, not so much! However, I do really enjoy it and would feel lost without because it helps move life along.... There are some songs which help move life more than others. My top songs of 2007 are not necessarily songs released this year, but those that I have enjoyed the most....

5. Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie

Why I love it? Because sometimes it really is me and not you..

4. Paper Planes by M.I.A.

Why I love it? Because the beat is hot! Because she is speaking the truth about life, even if MTV wants to edit her....

3. Letter by Letter by AYO.

Why I love it? Because sometimes you just want your loved one to share...something, even if it is just a little...

2. Pretty Wings by Maxwell

Why I love it? Because even though he has only released a snippet of his upcoming song, I am yearning for more. Because she was beautiful, yet dangerous and you had to leave...

My Number 1 Song of 2007 is....

S.O.S. by Doria Roberts

Why I love it? Because it has helped me get through the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with... Because...

we're running with this weight on our backs
And we're watching each step on treacherous and narrow paths
But every time there is a fork in the road
We are just getting use to our heavy loads
And we're so tired from the choosing that we haven't got the strength for trying
And I'm so tired of living just because I am afraid of dying
But I won't give up fighting for this pilgrimage I call surviving

Am I Not Good Enough?

Am I not good enough for you to answer my messages?
Am I not good enough for you to return my calls?
Am I not good enough for you to care about?
Am I not good enough for you to want to get better?
Am I not good enough for you?

Divine Intervention

Sooooooooooooo, it is all over! The meeting ended yesterday and I finished packing up and shipping out items from my onsite office today. Now, I get to enjoy Phoenix until I leave on Tuesday.

Today was a fun and awakening day...

I woke up and saw Joel Osteen on television. He was talking about how everything that happens to you is not a coincidence but is all apart of God's plan for you. And, when you want something you have to put it out there, believe and it will happen. Interesting...

After Joel, I was flipping channels and came across one of my favorite documentaries...My Date with Drew. It helped jump start me in the right direction, since I was feeling all sensitive and mopey....

Then, I went to Barnes & Noble. I came across this book, I have been eyeing for a while, How to Love Me. So, I figured that since I have seen it twice then it must be fate intervening and time for me to buy it. So, I did.

After B&N, I was hungry so I walked over to PF Chang's. I bought some fried rice. As I was eating the rice, I opened my fortune cookies...they gave me two! :-D Well, the fortunes said,
Cookie 1: Romance is just around the corner.
Cookie 2: Your sensitivity is an asset.

How funny is all of that?!?!?! Everything is interrelated, or at least appearing to be. Like the stars are aligning themselves to bring good things into my life....

Hmmm.....

P.S. Another piece to the puzzle, Joel's appearing on 60 Minutes tonight.... It's just one of those, everywhere I go there you are type of days....

thoughts of two

she thinks i'm pretty
i think she's intriguing
i'm possibly maybe interested in knowing more....

she thinks i'm hot
i think she's full of it
i'm possibly maybe not so sure what i want out of this...

she thinks i'm amazing
i think she's wonderful
i'm possibly maybe definitely wanting all of her...

she thinks i'm invisible
i think she's soul stirring
i'm possibly maybe going to try a bit more....or not....

LeLe & Sunshine

I had a dream where everyone was telling you, you loved me.
I had a dream you told me, you loved me.
I want you.
I cannot have you.
I will continue to dream.

What Made Me Smile Today...

So, I've been feeling crappy, but this made me smile today....  Especially since, I'm seeing her on Saturday...

Growing Balls

I despise confrontation, even when it could lead to a very good outcome. I just cannot deal with scaring or hurting anyone or having someone tell me no… Lately, I have been like, “I don’t give a damn. I’m doing this shit!”

I got up the courage to ask an old friend, why she and I did not work out. I was very fearful of how she was going to respond. It turned out to be okay. And, things are great between us…

I was finally able to gather the nerves and ask a friend of her intentions with me. While, I did not get a direct answer, I did receive enough of one to make me even more curious of how I fit into her life.

I have decided to write the letter that I have needed to write for the past 10 months.

What else is in store for me? From where, did these balls come?